Time

This is the first time I have written a blog, I have decided I will stick with it for at least ten blogs. Whether you, the reader (in this case), will stick with me is optional, debatable and highly unlikely. The reason I am writing this blog is to further enhance my creative writing but also responding to a dear friend's imploring words, encouraging me to dabble in the murky world of the blog. She told me she follows one blogger in particular who is so depressing she has thought of unsubscribing from the blog, drastic times, desperate measures.

An introduction, I am not female, I have under 30 years experience on this mortal coil and I do not have a job. This is how I see myself, when I am trying to be aloof and vague. The jobless world is a completely different one to anything I have ever experienced. The flowers still grow, the sun still shines and the prices are still set at exorbitant but there is a tinge of grey hanging over everything. It is not black, because that would be too obvious and in your face and it is not red because that would be alarming. It is grey because you don't immediately notice grey, it just kind of hangs there and then you remember.

Everyone has the Monday morning blues. That feeling of having to get up and go through it all again until Friday afternoon's bell tolls and you trundle off to reacquaint yourself with your social buddies, your bed and your favourite tipple that makes you eventually topple. The Unemployed Monday Blues are similar in ways but different in others. You do get up to do the same things you did last week, but they bring no joy. There is no fun to be found in filling out the same application for a different job, for answering the same question framed with a different topical question. One application recently asked me how Jacob's get the fig in the fig rolls, I work in Marketing I am not a tasty treats engineer. I presumed they were looking for a witty reaction, demonstrating some outside the box thinking, I didn't hear back from them so perhaps I presumed wrong. Another asked me to state my favourite advertising campaign of 2010. Interestingly, "strong attention to detail" was a requirement to work with this particular company. Now, either they were looking for a Marketer with a strong memory or they are severely lacking in people with "strong attention to detail". I await their response, or lack there of.

When you have no job to go to, time is something that becomes your enemy. While it has only been two months since I worked, it has already been two months since I worked. See what I did there. Time absolutely flies by at a scary rate, the longer the replies to job applications don't arrive the longer I feel I am hurtling closer and closer to 21/08/2019. That is the date my Social Welfare Card expires. Do they know something I don't?! Surely I will have a job before 2019, God knows how many 2 month periods that is! Needless to say I haven't been applying for jobs in Mathematics!